Holding Pattern

A few things have come about over the last few days. We have hit a holding pattern. We feel a bit lost with the endeavor we are under taking. I'm not quite sure if I should even post this on this blog. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what to post here and what to write about and hope this is still of interest to our readers.

We have realized that due to severe under funding and abundant IDEALISM, we are somewhat at a loss as to whether this undertaking is over taking US! We have several reasons for this move, aside from self reliance and self sufficiency. We truly want to change habits that we feel are preventing us from creating a consistent progressive pattern in our lives. As we thought about and pondered this change over the last couple of years, our weaknesses were glaring right at us. We saw our laziness, our gluttony, our complete waste, our lack of care or responsibility for more than just ourselves and what this was doing to our fellow living beings and our Mother Earth. We became acutely aware of where our economy seemed to be heading. We saw the need for constructive play and work to be the order of the day for our children. We wanted to do better. We LONGED to BE better....but....just didn't know how we could do it, living in our current society that seems to enable all the negative attributes I just listed above. We wanted to spend MUCH more time together as a family and truly share in "being the change we wanted to see in the world."

We are pretty sure we can still go forward and make ends meet. We have some ideas to bring in some income, even though, our hope is that we will need very little monetary funds by the time all is said and done. We hope to be able to trade goods like goods and help to rebuild a more principled economy. But....we are still in a quandary of how to move forward. That with 5 children, whom we home school and are with all day long and do need constant and consistent attention, if we really can accomplish this goal. We truly want the best for them. We believe this change can instill something inside of them the strength to believe and live their dreams. The question is....do we have the strength inside us, as their parents? We just don't know.

This is reason for this post. You can read a more emotional version on my other blog at www.livingmom.net. I am wanting ideas, thought, opinions(hopefully understanding and kind), support. Has our idealism gotten the best of us? Should we have transitioned more? I feel just so lost in these questions that I am struggling for an answer.

I know I have insightful readers and friends. Thank you in advance for your words. They will be pondered and prayed over and taken very seriously.

I am truly going to try and post more often. Another question is what are people wanting to know about through our experience? That might give me a better idea about what to post about.

Abundant peace to all,
Rachel