Last night we were watching this funny movie called "Run Fatboy Run." It's a British film about a guy who runs out on his pregnant girlfriend on their wedding day. 5 years later and after she finds a new guy, he realizes he made a mistake and wants her back. During those 5 years he has gained quite a bit of weight. Also, he is concluding that he is unhappy and has been unable to follow through with anything of importance to him.
He meets his love interest's new boyfriend and he happens to be running a marathon for a charity. The main character decides he is going to run too and prove to her that he can follow through, with the hopes that she will want him back.
I won't ruin the movie for you because I think it's good enough that you should see it but there's a scene that impacted both Chris and I profoundly. He's running the race and soon after starting , he gets hurt. He's lying on the ground deciding if he should keep going. The movie leaves you assuming he doesn't. As time passes, you realize he is running the race while being pretty injured.
During the middle of the run (or walk since he was so injured he's walking pretty slow), he stops. Everyone around him is sure he has hit "the wall." In the movie, a brick wall appears before him and you can tell he just doesn't think he can see a way to get through it. Then....a brick is removed from the middle of the wall. He stands on his tip toes and looks through it.Mind you, at this point, I assumed he was going to see his love interest. She was the one it seemed he was doing it for so I only guessed that she would be on the other side motivating him. Nope. He looked through the brick only to see himself on the other side.
Chris and I were talking this morning and he said, "I'm like that guy in the movie last night. I felt like I'd hit "the wall." You've seen some of my previous posts. You understand just a tidbit of the struggles we've had. They may not look like that much. They're probably not in the grand scheme of things. But....just like the movie when the main character was injured, he merely stumbled a bit but still got back up. I feel that's how things have been for us up til now. Just things to stumble over but then you just pick yourself back up.
Where we are at now feels much different merely in the fact that we see the wall, we feel the wall, we are completely conscious to where we are at in comparison to the wall...how we got here....and are now asking ourselves if we can go forward. And even more importantly, asking ourselves the question of...if we do go forward why are we going forward and for what reason?
Well, I'm very happy to say I think we have and are getting our answers. I'm scared to put this out there because then it seems so much more real but we decided to make a 2 year commitment with the adventure and then see where we are at. We already knew some of the reasons why we made this decision. Where we are at now only heightens our awareness and shows the picture clearer than when we arrived in Texas.
Chris and I are looking through our wall right now. We see we are doing this for ourselves and our family. We see that I am doing this for me and he is doing this for him. We see that even though this is THE MOST challenging thing we have ever done, we believe....we hold out hope, that the end result will be more rewarding than we could ever imagine. We say that full well knowing that it could turn out completely different than we even had planned.
So, I am happy to say....we are climbing over, or scooting under or just plain plowing through our wall right now, knowing we will come out victorious on the other side. I think anyways.....hehehehe!
Abundant peace to all,
Rachel
NEAT! And very well written.
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